"Bedtime Story", completed 6/29/99, by
Paula O'Keefe (==martiangirl==) (Fanfic)
Disclaimer:
Jar Jar Binks, Queen Amidala, and all the
rest of the people and places of George Lucas' STAR
WARS universe are the property of Lucasfilm, Ltd.,
and Master Lucas himself. No copyright infringement
is intended and no profit is incurred by this usage;
just wanted to let them tell a little story…
Martiangirl
For the twentieth time Amidala pillowed her
weary head in her folded arms and tried in vain to rest.
With one hand she pulled her brocade robe around her,
shivering. The small observation deck seemed so cold,
more so than on the day - it seemed a year ago - that
little Anakin had complained of it. Space is cold, she
had told him. Indeed it is; colder than she had known
or could have guessed.
Gods, she was tired. She had hardly slept all the
time they were on Coruscant. Her appearance before
the Senate had demanded total attention, her most
commanding presence, constant vigilance toward every
discussion and possible opposition. She had dared
not show even a moment's flicker of fatigue lest it
seem weakness, and she had carried it off, but the
price was utter exhaustion. And now they were bound
for home, but there was no rest there; as soon as
they arrived they would be plunged into a battle to
drive an occupying enemy out of her city, out of her
very household. They were in her cherished home -
in Theed Palace - even now... When she closed her
eyes all she could see were the details of her strategy,
her mind darting from point to point like a dragonfly,
unable to be still.
The young Queen massaged the tight point of pain
between her eyebrows. Through the small portal she
could see stars streak by in the endless racing lines
of hyperspace, reminding her how quickly time was
passing. She must try to sleep during the journey.
Going into battle in this state of fatigue was a risk
she couldn't take; if she failed, the plan failed,
and everything she loved was at the enemy's mercy.
There must be a way to push it all aside and calm
her mind, just for an hour or two...
A long duckbill muzzle poked around the corner of
the observation deck doorway and hastily withdrew.
"Oh! Exqueeze me, You Highness. Mesa thinken
no one bein here."
"No, Jar Jar, that's all right. Come in."
She felt grateful for a friendly intrusion; it might
help take her mind off her worries. And the presence
of a fellow Nabooite was comfort in itself. The Jedi
Knights' concern might be genuine, but it wasn't their
world the Nemioidians were hammering like metal on
the forge. She moved aside on the round, low-backed
bench that circled the table and let the lanky Gungan
fold onto it beside her.
"Mesa thinken might be taken littly nap before
wesa landen home," he offered. "Looken like
yousa sleepen too, maybe?"
His extended amber eyes regarded her with kind sympathy.
I must look terribly ragged if even Jar Jar can tell
I'm worn out, Amidala thought, and realized with
a little tug of warmth that he was concerned for her.
She sighed ruefully.
"I've been trying to sleep, but I can't. I can't
stop thinking about what to do." It was a relief
to talk to someone she didn't have to impress with
her set-in-stone resolve. She raised her head enough
to rest her chin on her arms and watched the stars
blaze past. "I know everyone's counting on me."
"If yousa too tired, be no matter if yousa plan
is d'bestest ever," Jar Jar observed pragmatically,
while trying to make himself comfortable on a bench
not designed to fit seven-foot-tall aliens. "Sleepy
warriors bein no warriors atall."
She realized the soundness of the advice, even as
his awkward contortions made her smile. His good-natured
simplicity was so refreshing compared to the hostility
and smooth duplicity she'd felt surrounding her on
Coruscant, or the austere, martial dignity of the
Jedi Knights. Even the fine snailskin patterning of
his cream-and-cinnamon hide was a pleasant organic
touch in the chilly sleekness of the cruiser deck.
Strange how completely she had come to trust this
creature that generations of Naboo had called a barbaric
savage...
Well, it was good advice; she should try once more
to follow it. Amidala settled down again, closing
her eyes, and a thought occurred to her.
"Jar Jar," she suggested, "tell me
about your city."
"Mesa city? Yousa meanin' Otoh Gunga?"
"Yes. Qui-Jon told me a little about it, but
there wasn't much time."
Had the Gungan said something softly under his breath?
Maybe he was just being bashful, or unsure how to
begin. Amidala pressed gently, "He said it's
made of - energy spheres?"
"Hesa right," agreed the Gungan. "Wesa
builden city-bubbles outa same stuff wesa usen for
battle-shields. Wesa comen and goen, but no water
getten in, no blasters getten thru. Bes safe there."
An underwater city of clear, sealed spheres...she
pictured the soft, filtered light, the silently waving
gardens of water fern and lakeweed. A safe place.
"It sounds so peaceful," she said wistfully.
"I wish I could go there."
"Mesa wishen same." The Gungan's voice
was no less wistful. The long head cocked sideways,
ears lifting slightly, and she had the oddest feeling
he was listening to her feelings rather than her words.
When he went on, his chirping voice was softer, the
long phrases lulling, as if he were tale-telling to
children.
"Is most beautiest place, Otoh Gunga, and most
quietest. Desa monsters in the core, but no monsters
ever comen there. Wesa protecten it. Up in d'swamp
light be so bright, hurten wesa eyes, but down in
Otoh Gunga light be comen down and down, all softlike."
The tall Gungan gave up trying to curl up on the
bench and instead stretched his long legs out under
the table, leaning against the low backrest.
"Mesa remember d'first time mesa ever leaven
city. Mesa just a tadling, goen on big hunten trip
wit' clan. Was first time mesa ever seein' deep-water
pearls." His long-nailed fingers described a
sphere the size of a large fruit. "Only d'maxi-big
shellfishies be maken them. So-o pitty!"
Jar Jar sighed happily with the memory, and Amidala
imagined the young Gungan's wonderment. What a keen
sense of beauty they have, she thought. So unlike
what we imagined them to be.
"Desa like littly moons sitten in the shell-bed.
And when wesa swimmen home, mesa seein' city from
way-afar, all moonshiny, and mesa thinken, is all
same. Wesa maken Otoh Gunga to look just likey big
bed of pearls, methinks. Likey beautiest things wesa
Gungans ever see." (An indefinable something
had crept into Jar Jar's voice; was it sadness? Here
in deep space, did he feel as far away from home as
she did, creatures of forest and water as they were?)
Amidala was captivated by the poetry of the image:
a city of glowing spheres nestled in the dark lake-bed
like great magical jewels, a treasure of the gods.
The rich brocade robe was finally doing its job and
she'd begun to feel soothingly warm. "It must
be so beautiful, " she murmured.
"Is no place moreso," Jar Jar assured her
solemnly, and now the sorrow in his voice was so deep
that she raised her head to look at him in surprise.
A big tear filled one amber eye and trickled down
his eyestalk, and the Gungan turned his head away.
"Oh, Jar Jar! I'm so sorry!" Amidala, full
of remorse, reached over to lay a comforting hand
on his arm. So wrapped up in my own troubles that
I never thought...but why should it make him so sad
to talk of his home? anyone can see how he loves it...
"Is nuttin' dat should trouble You Highness,"
mumbled Jar Jar, wiping the back of his hand across
his eyestalks.
"No, I am sorry, I never meant to make you cry.
What is it? Are you homesick?"
A deep sigh escaped him. "Otoh Gunga is no mesa
city now. Mesa banished from dere, under pain o' death.
Cannot never go home no more." The big golden
eyes met hers, as helplessly sad as a child's. "Is
as mesa say: the moto-beautiest place anywheres. But
mesa no welcome dere."
"Oh, dear Jar Jar." Amidala ached with
sympathy. How would she feel if she were banished
from her beloved Theed? It would be as if her heart
were cut out and she were expected to go on living
without it. She impulsively pressed the Gungan's cool,
leathery hand between hers; he blinked in surprise
but did not withdraw. "What happened? Was it
your fault?"
"Well-ll..yessy no..." Another deep sigh.
"Mesa clumsy. Always mesa be clumsy. Eveybody
bein so proud of dey pitty things...seemin like always,
here come Jar Jar an' boom! pitty thing get busted.
Mesa get too near bubble-wall, it springen leak an'
flooden house. Mesa go to see fishie-keepin, fishies
all getten loose. Mesa no meanen to!" It was
a cry of pure frustration. "Mesa never meanen
to! but finally desa sayen, dat jar Jar, he breaken
alla wules, alla time. Wules say all wesa maken be
beauty, but dis one...all hesa maken be trouble an'
mess." Jar Jar's voice filled with humiliation
and shame. "Dey say, hesa no true Gungan, dis
one. Hesa no good to live in city. Hesa go live in
swamp wit' beasties."
The Gungan lowered his long-muzzled head and fell
silent. Amidala could think of nothing to say. They
had banished him not only from his home but even from
his kind, deemed him no better than an animal. True,
it was easy to imagine what disasters his awkwardness
might cause in a city dependent on fragile membranes
for its safety, but the punishment still seemed too
cruel. Clearly it had cut her emotional friend to
the heart...
...her friend? well, wasn't he? and were they not
about to become battle-comrades as well?
Queen Amidala made up her mind. "Jar Jar, I
make you this promise. If we win - if your people
can help me save my city - I will do whatever I can
to return you to yours. Whatever influence I may gain
with your leaders, whatever I can do, I will."
He looked up at her sideways, the slightly-retracted
eyestalks tentatively extending. "Mesa not know,
You Highness. Da Bosses mighty stubborn."
But there was a tinge of hope in his voice, and she
smiled and squeezed his hand once more.
"It will be the least I can do for such a true
ally and comrade." She hesitated - it was an
extraordinary thing for a Queen of Naboo to say, for
any Nabooite to say. But it was true.
"--and for such a good friend."
Jar Jar's eyestalks popped nearly out of his skull.
"Wesa friends? You Highness an' mesa? Yousa sayin'
dat, truly?"
"Mesa saying that," replied Queen Amidala
with perfect gravity, "truly."
The Gungan whooped with raucous laughter and caught
the surprised Queen of Naboo around her shoulders
in a huge hug. "Mesa never forgettin' dis! Even
mesa livin' long enough to have whiskas, mesa never
forget!"
He realized what he had done and quickly released
her, drawing back, flustered. "Mesa you friend
too," he added earnestly, awkwardly patting her
hand.
Amidala had to laugh, charmed by his shyness. If
even some other Gungans were like Jar Jar, she would
have no trouble whatever convincing the Naboo that
they had been wrong about them for centuries.
"Yes, you are."
She returned to her original spot and leaned her head
on her arm, looking out again at the stars. "I
will have so much to tell the Naboo about your people,
when this is all over," she went on thoughtfully,
after a moment. "I'd be ashamed to tell you what
we've always thought of you."
"Mesa know," said the Gungan with a sleepy
sigh, stretching his arms out ahead of him. (All this
emotion seemed to be getting the better of his alertness;
she recalled that he had originally come in here in
hopes of a nap. And so had she, come to think of it...)"Yousa
thinken wesa stupid an'dangerous. And wesa thinken
yousa weak an'scaredy. Wesa all wrong."
"Wesa - I mean, we all have to learn."
The young Queen smiled into her sleeve - the Gungan's
odd syntax was contagious. To herself she thought,
'stupid and dangerous'! 'Primitives'! How can we have
been talking this way for centuries about people who
have energy-plasma technology? who designed their
capital city as a work of art?...
"An' yousa Theed city pitty place too,"
Jar Jar added politely, "so wesa all doin' honor
to d'Guds, as should." He yawned cavernously,
bill gaping. "Like mesa sayin...Gungans believen
*yawn* that all things wesa builden, desa beauty to
see, or desa no good. Insulten to d'Guds it is, maken
ugly things."
Amidala yawned, herself, and snuggled into her robe.
What a kind philosophy theirs was. When this fighting
was over they would make a peace treaty, with grand
ceremony, in the city square, and be friends always.
Always.
"So long as wesa always minden what wesa seein
round us… wesa all inna balance. Desa ...*yawn*
desa Gungan way…" His voice trailed off.
His head and shoulders slumped slowly back, long ears
dangling to the floor.
"I'll bring in your people ..your artisans…
to build something inside Theed," Amidala promised
drowsily. "Something in your own style...to mark
our friendship. A bridge, perhaps..."
There was no reply. The Gungan was snoring quietly.
Queen Amidala, her eyes closed, her mind calm, pictured
the bridge they would build in Theed, a long arc,
graceful as water-ferns. Something beautiful, to honor
the Gods, to stand for peace. Peace...
And it was quiet on the observatory deck, halfway
to Naboo.